Ball Stepper

My family loves movies. While watching Trading Places, we picked up on a comment "...and she stepped on the ball." My partner and daughter laughed and looked at me. We interpreted it as an individual who knew a lot about nothing and hence the name stayed with me. My name is Crystal also known as tafkap4d and I am...the Ball Stepper.

Monday, August 13, 2007

What is Truth?

Seems like a trick question, hunh? I am sure we all have individual truths that we use from time to time but what is really truth.

Webster says the following when asked for a definition of truth

Conformity to fact or actuality

A statement proven to be or accepted as true

Sincerity; integrity

Fidelity to an original or standard.

These may be definitions of truth but what does it really mean to you. Take a few moments before reading any further to figure out what it means to you. This is irrelevant to what I perceive truth to be - I am asking you for deep down, soul searching truth.
I have come to the conclusion that I cannot be truthful to another if I cannot be truthful to myself. Truthfully, I have a difficult time being true to myself. I cannot blame anyone for my lack of integrity or realization that I am "okay" just the way I am.
I am coming to realize that truth and joy go hand in hand.

I am in a miserable state right now. Similar to what Carlton Pearson speaks of - simply put, I am in hell at this present stage of my life. A series of life events that really put me in turmoil began over seven months ago.

It seems that the old adage, when it rains it pours, began to take form in my otherwise lovely and peaceful life. I have a new home and a wonderful partner and a kid at a prestigious university...or at least I did. Life can be very tricky – we can allow it to trick us into thinking that our new home, our fabulous lifestyles, clothes, cars and all that we fill it with define us. I admit that I never allowed it to define me but I did allow it to buffer me from the ills of the remainder of the world. The buffer ran out on July 28, 2007.


Saturday, August 04, 2007

life as we know it

Sometimes our life path takes an unexpected twist or turn. It is our willingness to accept where we are, what we have at any given moment and transform it that determines whether we create a blessing or a curse for ourselves.

I have been inspired to examine what really matters in my own life. I struggle to find purpose, expression... waiting for something "out there" to liberate me from my own confines. No matter what the reality of our outer world looks or feels like, it is the limitless inner resources we can draw from to sustain and nourish us.

An essential part of our spiritual journey is developing the capacity to remain in an undistrubred state no matter what happens to us.

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